Sometimes to see where you are you have to look back at where you’ve been. Don’t linger there, just take a quick glimpse, fill in any unaddressed hollows that could haunt you into the forevers.
Introspection while steeped in solitude is the best way I’ve found for unraveling the knots of self misconception.
In 1997 when I moved from the west coast of California to the high desert mountains of Arizona I traded seagulls and the ocean for ravens and the high desert sky.
I traded people and the city for the life of a recluse and the wilderness.
I spent 9 years in solitude.
It took 3 years of just sitting or aimlessly wandering the hills like an unteathered camel to wash away forty eight years of accumulations motivated by fear.
Almost half a century held captive by fear.
It took another three years to trade anger for compassion, sorry for joy and the intellect for intuition.
And another three years to end reification and set myself free from me.
Nine years facing the wall of introspective solitude.
Because I believe if you don’t take the time you forfeit the rhythm of simply being.
People have asked me how can you spend nine years in complete solitude.
The further out you go, the longer you stay and the longer you stay the less likely you are to find a reason to return.